Whoever you are, wherever you are, whatever you do, whatever you believe in, whoever is your God or no God, there is one question you can’t escape: What is this life all about?
Answering this question itself has become a big business. Biggest, perhaps. Religions, science, humanity, philosophers, scholars, kings, teachers, parents, friends, books, magazines, articles, TV, advertising, social media… almost everyone on this earth tries to answer it in their own limited ways. We listen to everything and yet, we keep wondering, “what is this life all about?”
So did I, most of my life.
One day, during my early morning walk, I deeply reflected on a very important issue which I had to address in a meeting scheduled right after. The issue was very important. My life depended on it. It involved my professional future, my financial health, my family’s well-being and my reputation.. I walked unaware of my surroundings. I wasn’t even aware of the people who wished me a good morning. After all, I was focused on my life. That’s when a honey-bee stung me on my neck. Within seconds I was in unbearable pain as my neck started burning. This was the first time I was stung by a honey-bee. I stopped wherever I was. I emptied my water bottle on my neck, took out my T shirt and tied it on my neck. I rushed home, took a cold shower and applied all kinds of creams. For the next couple of hours, I was in pain, trying all kinds of home-remedies like applying sandal, rosewater, honey, baking soda, toothpaste etc. I even forgot that I had one of the most important meetings of my life, about my life. The phone kept ringing somewhere and I didn’t even bother to look at it.
What seemed like life, few moments ago, became insignificant because of a tiny honey-bee’s sting. A bit of pain seemed like life.
That night, as I tried to meditate before sleeping, I just couldn’t. The sting on my neck wouldn’t let me go into the zone. Then a thought crossed my mind. It’s a weird idea. But many creative people like me do such eccentric things. “What if the honey bee was my lover and it was a love bite?”, I thought. Slowly, I focused on the bite and started visualizing it as a soft kiss of my lover. Believe you me, slowly the pain faded away and soon, I was in a meditative zone. It was a different experience that night as I sat in deep meditation and in that state, I found the answer to the most important question of life: What is this life all about? I realized that my life is about me.
That was my ‘Buddha moment’. That moment changed everything. Since then, I discovered a new kind of success. The success which only I can celebrate with myself. Its blissful. Its divine. And it is as permanent as myself. I call it an ‘I Am Buddha’ state.
Yes, your life is only about you. And what you do with yourself is what your life becomes. How you deal with a situation, how you respond, how you let it affect you, what you learn from it, what you become out of it, all depends only on you. It depends on your thoughts and your reactions. How you deal with the honey bee’s sting will decide the pain or joy in your life.
In Hindu society God is perceived as Brahma, Vishnu, Mahesh – the Creator, the Preserver and the Destroyer. Also, the fulcrum of Hindu thought is, tatvam asi – thou art that. You are that (God). In that moment of pain, I understood the real meaning of this great philosophical statement.. You are the creator, preserver and destroyer of your life. It’s all about you. That’s why everything about the self is most important – self-discovery, self-knowledge, self-improvement and self-realization. What else is enlightenment if not the self-discovery for that is the discovery of God, the ultimate truth, the Moksha, the nirvana.
Since that night I have been on a journey of self-discovery. It was a journey, full of observations and discoveries, hence there are no conclusions. When we discover something, it does not become our property. It is something that was there for the entire humanity, you happen to reach there before anyone else or through a new route. That’s it. It is neither an achievement nor something to be proud of. It must be shared.
Also, in Hindu culture, we believe that knowledge grows when it is shared. So, I am sharing some of my observations and discoveries. When you read them, just remember, these are my observations. About my life. These are neither lessons nor solutions. These are just directions. My experiments. My understandings. My experiments can’t be your experiments. My understanding can’t be your understanding. To really explore your life, you will have to go inside your own self. You will have to find your own honey bee and her sting. What you do with that sting will be your choice. Because your life is only about you.
Go, discover it. Understand it. Live it. Be #IAmBuddha